Week update 2/4/13

Week Update:

Greg and I are trying to eat better and work out.  Sunday I did a great workout!  I walked at a very high speed (to where I was sweating after 10 minutes; almost a run) and also did the following:
30 squats
20 front lunges
20 pushups 
20 curls (5 lb weights in each hand)
20 90 degree upwards push (5 lb weights in each hand)
20 behind the arm push above head (5 lb weight for both)
40 crunches

Hopefully if I keep this up, I will lose my weight!

It is hard being a Mommy and trying to find time to work out with everything else I do.  It sucks so much to see that I have weight I still want to loose and I want to tone up but having a baby and being a good Mom that I am, it is hard to find time to not be playing with Owen or doing our regular house stuff or just spending a moment with my Husband to work out.  I know I really need to do it for myself and my inner self but it is just hard. I guess I just have to do it!  I also am pushing Greg to do it because I want him to stay healthy forever! 

I really hope I can change this around.  My dilema is I don't want to become like my Mother, where all she cares about is herself and her kids slack.  I will NEVER be that kind of Mom.  I want to work out and do things for me but I feel to not be my Mom, I can not do that.  I LOVE playing with Owen and having him attached to my side.  In the same sense, I know I need to work out.  I don't know.  There are so many things twisting and turning in me.....sometimes I feel I don't know which way is right.

Here's to hoping I can find a good balance where Owen is not suffering but neither am I.  If anyone has to though, it will be me.  I love my baby too much.

~Jess